Ree Drummond Hates Seeing This 1 Thing on the First Season of ‘Pioneer Woman’

Celebrity chef Ree Drummond has filmed more than 200 episodes of Pioneer Woman, but she’s not entirely comfortable in front of the camera yet, according to Country Living. In fact, she still cringes a little when she watches herself on television.

Besides being the star of her own show, American blogger Ann Marie “Ree” Drummond is a New York Times best-selling author, photographer, and owner of a working ranch outside of Pawhuska, Oklahoma. It’s been a long journey from starting her blog, The Pioneer Woman, to getting her own show, and, naturally, Drummond has had some ups and downs along the way.

Find out what the Pioneer Woman had to adjust to when she started her show and the things she still cringes at when she looks back at her early days of filming.

1. Herself as a television personality

The Pioneer Woman Magazine Celebration with Ree Drummond

She was not comfortable in front of the camera at first. | Monica Schipper/Getty Images

After all this time, Drummond isn’t entirely comfortable in front of a camera, according to Country Living. Season 1, of course, was the roughest.

Even filming in her own kitchen made Drummond uncomfortable. Now. she often muses about how “green” she was during the first season and told Country Living that she would like the first 15 episodes of the show “stricken from the record.” Sigh — everyone is their own worst critic.

Next: Drummond on repeating herself

2. Repetitive phrases

The Pioneer Woman Magazine on display during The Pioneer Woman Magazine Celebration

She realized quickly why they have those phrases. | Monica Schipper/Getty Images

Drummond was an avid Food Network fan even before she had a show. She would often hear the chefs using phrases over and over and wondered why they didn’t get some new material. But once Drummond had her own show, she understood why the stars used repetitive phrases — it’s easy to do when you’re under pressure.

Drummond, no doubt, cringed again when she watched Season 1 of her show and heard herself repeating pet phrases. According to Country Living, she actually made a list of phrases she didn’t want to sling around, including “my absolute favorite,” “absolutely scrumptious,” “I’m just gonna stir,” and “I’m just gonna add.” In addition, Drummond has broken the habit of starting each sentence with “So, now.”

Next: It’s all about balance.

3. Her work life balance

On her blog, Drummond wrote that that the hardest part of filming the show was balancing being a wife and mother with everything else in her life. She was determined to make the show not just about herself, but about her family, ranch, and home state of Oklahoma.

Drummond also had to get used to coordinating myriad aspects of the show, including transportation, camera crews, and outfits. For instance, they had to refilm a segment of a show they had previously shot, and Drummond realized the clothes they needed for the shot were at the bottom of a mud pile — which later turned out to be cow dung. That’s part of life on a working ranch!

Next: Drummond’s fear of the bathroom

4. Avoiding the bathroom

Ree Drummond speaks onstage at Hearst Magazines' Unbound Access MagFront

Once she’s mic’d up, that’s it. | Bryan Bedder/Getty Images for Hearst

On her blog, Drummond describes how she learned to wait — as long as necessary — to go to the bathroom during her show’s first season. That’s because she had the mic on the entire time and was afraid the sound engineer would hear her doing her business.

Drummond initially tried turning the mic off when she would get a break, but the sound guy had to keep reminding her to turn it back on. Because she didn’t want to inconvenience anyone, she simply kept her mic on and stopped going to the ladies’ room. Ouch.

Next: Life ain’t so easy on a ranch.

5. The idea that life is easier in the country

Drummond loves living out in the middle of nowhere with her family and told Community Table, “There are no skyscrapers; there’s no traffic. That isn’t all life is, hustle-bustle. For some people, it would drive them crazy, having the silence and the clear view. But for me, it’s what my soul needed.”

That said, Drummond doesn’t like it when people think she has an easy life at the ranch. “We have just as many crazy irons in the fire as everyone else,” Drummond said.

Next: Redoing the lodge

6. The lodge

Drummond must not have liked the ranch’s lodge, where she has filmed many shows, because she and her husband decided to completely rebuild it, according to her blog. Drummond noted that the lodge had electricity, plumbing, mold, and roof issues, plus a termite infestation and some resident rats. In addition, the couple felt they didn’t have enough room for their four children — and visitors. Because they don’t have hotels nearby, they welcome family to stay at the ranch, and now they have plenty of extra room.

Next: Camera shy

7. Herself with stage fright

Ree Drummond attends The Pioneer Woman Magazine Celebration

She still gets stage fright. | Monica Schipper/Getty Images

Drummond still gets nervous in front of the camera. She told Country Living that stage fright is something she has to combat regularly, saying, “Oh, gosh. I’m a pretty outgoing person, but I get stage fright, especially if I have a speaking engagement. I get panicky. This sounds like an Oklahoma thing to say, but I always pray before any sort of speaking engagement, because it sort of removes myself from the equation. I try to take the focus away from me, because if I focus on me, it’s all over. I focus on what I hope people will take away, so I focus on the message, and less on me.”

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