This Is How Beyoncé Really Feels About Winning Awards

With a total of 23 Grammy Awards and 70 nominations — Beyoncé is the most nominated woman and the second-most awarded woman in the history of the Grammys. And, that’s just one awards ceremony. The songstress has been nominated and awarded with countless other accolades.

However, there have been times — namely the 2009 MTV Awards, when the BeyHive felt like the queen lost out on awards that should have been hers. After all, no matter what you might personally think about Beyoncé, she has the vocals, sex appeal, dance moves and hit songs that most other artists of this era simply cannot compete with.

Still, no matter if Beyoncé wins or loses an award that she has been nominated for, she’s always been so gracious and kind. Now, the songstress is revealing what she really thinks about awards.

Beyoncé is not immune to negativity

Though she often seems above it all — Beyoncé still sees many of the mean and hateful comments directed towards her online. She never addresses them directly, but that doesn’t mean they don’t affect her. “Yes, I’m human..” she told Elle. “In moments of vulnerability, I try to remind myself I’m strong and I’m built for this. Thank God most of the noise bounces off of me after all of these years.”

It’s probably helpful that the queen typically posts and logs off. She’s not following anyone on her Instagram accounts and apparently, she doesn’t even know the personal details to her secret Snapchat. “I hate to say it, I hope I don’t sound ridiculous, but I don’t know what my Snapchat is,” she joked. “Sorry to that Snapchat. 🤪🤫🤐”

All of Beyoncé’s music and art is personal

Though we might not have a front-row seat to her daily life — all of Beyoncé’s music is extremely personal. We saw her at her most vulnerable with Lemonade, but she’s sensitive about all of her art, especially since it’s then sent into the world to be scrutinized.

“The more I mature, the more I understand my value,” she explained. “I realized I had to take control of my work and my legacy because I wanted to be able to speak directly to my fans in an honest way. I wanted my words and my art to come directly from me. There were things in my career that I did because I didn’t understand that I could say no. We all have more power than we realize.”

This is how Beyoncé really feels about awards

Recognition for your life’s work is wonderful — but Beyoncé doesn’t need awards for validation.  “I began to search for deeper meaning when life began to teach me lessons I didn’t know I needed,” she revealed. “Success looks different to me now. I learned that all pain and loss is in fact a gift. Having miscarriages taught me that I had to mother myself before I could be a mother to someone else. Then I had Blue, and the quest for my purpose became so much deeper. I died and was reborn in my relationship, and the quest for self became even stronger. It’s difficult for me to go backwards. Being “number one” was no longer my priority. My true win is creating art and a legacy that will live far beyond me. That’s fulfilling.”