Camila Cabello Writes About How Anxiety Stopped Her from Singing Publicly Growing Up

Camila Cabello seems like she’s not afraid of singing publicly, but that wasn’t always the case. The singer opened up about growing up with anxiety and how she was very different about performing in childhood. Find out what she wrote and more of what she has revealed about her mental health journey.

Camila Cabello previously said she’s living with obsessive-compulsive disorder

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The former Fifth Harmony singer has opened up about her mental health before. She talked about living with obsessive-compulsive disorder.

OCD is weird. I laugh about it now. Everybody has different ways of handling stress,” she told Cosmopolitan UK. “And, for me, if I get really stressed thinking about something, I’ll start to have the same thought over and over again, and no matter how many times I get to the resolution, I feel like something bad is about to happen if I don’t keep thinking about it.”

Now she has learned to manage it. ” I feel so much more in control of it now. To the point where I’m just like, ‘Aha! OK, this is just my OCD.’ I’ll ask my mom a question for the fourth time, and she’ll be like, ‘That’s OCD. You’ve got to let it go.'”

Cabello is opening up about her mental health again on Instagram. She revealed what her childhood was like with anxiety.

She wrote that she wouldn’t sing when she was younger because she would get flustered

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I remember growing up hearing stories of the singers I loved, all the stories sounded the same, kids who would grow up performing for their families and putting on talent shows for their parents when they were little who grew up to be dazzling to me. I was the opposite, I never ever sang in front of my parents or friends and would get flustered when they would ask me to, I sang in my room when my parents left for Walmart and cried when one day I saw them filming me through the crack of the door, I got teary eyed when people sang happy birthday to me because people looking at me actually made me overwhelmed. I was generally incredibly nervous and socially anxious when I was little; and people always have this look of disbelief when I tell them that. I did an interview the other day where I got it again, the interviewer said something along the lines of “So… how’d you end up here?” The answer is, I feel like my whole life there’s been two Camila’s in me. There’s little Camila that is terrified of the unknown, is aware of all the ways everything can go wrong, (actually can picture them vividly lol), and thinks it’s safer to stay home than to play ball. Then there’s the other Camila. And she knows what she wants out of life, is aware of how little time I have to let little Camila run the show while time passes by, and grabs young me by the hand and forces her out the door saying “Let’s go. You’ll survive, and I’m not gonna miss out on this. Let’s go.” And that is literally how I can sum up how I’ve gotten to this point in my life. (I’m talking about as a person, not success.) remember feeling discouraged when I felt like some people were just “born” to do things. That they always had it in them. “They were always this outgoing, they always loved to entertain, they were always this bold, they were always this outspoken.” (…..continue)

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The singer posted a picture lying on a couch and looking at her dog. She wrote about how she wasn’t singing in front of other people in her childhood.

Part of the caption read, “I was the opposite, I never ever sang in front of my parents or friends and would get flustered when they would ask me to, I sang in my room when my parents left for Walmart and cried when one day I saw them filming me through the crack of the door, I got teary eyed when people sang happy birthday to me because people looking at me actually made me overwhelmed. I was generally incredibly nervous and socially anxious when I was little; and people always have this look of disbelief when I tell them that.”

She posted another photo and wrote about still having anxiety

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The singer posted another picture from the same day. The caption continues her message. She wrote about how she still struggles today.

“Little me hasn’t left. I just don’t let her boss me around as much,” reads part of the caption. Her advice is to push through the negative emotions.

She later wrote, “I went from never wanting to sing in front of my family to being addicted to performing, from being too anxious to hang out with new people to… still being a little anxious but having THE BEST time and making irreplaceable memories. The essence of me is the same, but i’ve changed so much as a person. You choose who you’re going to be. Force yourself to do what you’re afraid of, always- and go after what you want and who you want to be, because you’re worth that. You’re worth the fight.”

Many fans responded to the post saying they were inspired by her story.