Demi Lovato Opens Up About Cocaine Addiction in New Documentary
Demi Lovato released a new documentary in which the singer gives a glimpse into her career and her personal life – including her addiction to cocaine. The documentary hit YouTube Tuesday and has 1.3 million views to date.
In the film, Lovato tells of delving into the world of drinking and drugs at a young age. “Growing up, I had been bullied in school. I felt like an outsider. I felt like an outcast,” Lovato said. “At that time, I became friends with a girl who was popular, and one day, I asked her, ‘How do you have all these friends?’ and she was like, ‘Well, do you party?’ I was like, ‘What do you mean?’ and she asked me, ‘Do you drink?’ We experienced a lot of stuff together, drinking and using and growing up.”
The “Sorry Not Sorry” singer tells of starting to use cocaine. “My first time doing coke, I was 17, working on Disney Channel, and I was with a couple friends, and they introduced me to it,” she said. “I was scared because my mom always told me that your heart could just burst if you do it, but I did it anyways and I loved it.”
The singer explained why she felt interested in trying drugs. “My dad was an addict and an alcoholic, and I guess I always searched for what he found in drugs and alcohol because it fulfilled him, and he chose that over a family,” he said.
The singer also opened up about being on Adderall while touring in Colombia on the Camp Rock 2 tour with the Jonas Brothers – and Kevin Jonas Sr. and her dad finding out about the drugs. “Now it was out that I was on Adderall,” she said.
Lovato went on to begin a drug treatment program at the age of 18, when she was also diagnosed with bipolar disorder. However, after the program, she continued to use drugs. “I went on like a bender for like two months where I was using daily,” she said. “There was one night where I used a bunch of coke and I popped a few Xanax bars and I started to choke a little bit, my heart started racing, and I remember thinking, ‘Oh my God, I might be overdosing right now.’”
After years of struggles, Lovato eventually became sober at the age of 19. The singer lived for more than a year in a sober apartment with roommates and chores, without access to a cell phone. She celebrated her five-year anniversary of being sober in March 2017.
The documentary also delves into Lovato’s tumultuous childhood, with her father coming in and out of her life. The film includes interviews with Lovato’s mother and sisters, as well as childhood friends. Also included are interviews with the singer herself, where in addition to drugs, she also touches on sexuality, her past eating disorder, and her relationship and breakup with Wilmer Valderrama.
Lovato touches on her sexuality in the documentary. “I am on a dating app with both guys and girls. I am open to human connection. So whether that’s through a male or a female it doesn’t matter to me.”