Elton John Reveals His Biggest Regret in Life

Elton John is a legendary singer who has touched people with his music for nearly five decades. Currently 72 years old, John has lived a very long and fulfilling life. However, like many people, he has his fair share of regrets as well. Recently, John opened up about his biggest regret in life and how he has managed to use the wisdom he gained from that experience for good.

Elton John’s biggest regret is taking drugs

Elton John attends the 2019 Vanity Fair Oscar Party.
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To promote his new autobiography, Me, John sat down with NBC’s Today to share some tidbits about his life. When asked about his biggest regret, John shared that it was drugs. More specifically, he regretted being addicted to cocaine in the 1970s and 1980s.

He shared on Today that he started taking cocaine after someone he knew said that it “makes you feel free.” Although John was a successful musician at the time, when he was not performing on stage, he often was introverted and reclusive.

As such, the fact that cocaine could change his personality was attractive to him. John eventually became hooked on cocaine.

“I thought, ‘This is the drug that has opened me up. I can converse, I can be verbose,'” he explained.

According to John, his cocaine use was so frequent that he even came very close to death. However, even then, it did not make him want to stop.

John said: “I would have an epileptic seizure and turn blue, and people would find me on the floor and put me to bed, and then 40 minutes later I’d be snorting another line.”

And while cocaine made him a more open person at first, over time he withdrew from other people and was simply interested in locking himself in his room to use the drug.

Elton John became sober after his close friend passed away

John’s life was in chaos because of his cocaine use, but he received a wake-up call in 1990 when his friend, Ryan White, passed away from AIDS. White was a teenager who became known for contracting HIV from a blood transfusion for his hemophilia.

For John, the death of his young friend made him realize how ungrateful he had been in life. He recalled to Today: “Coming back to the hotel and complaining about the wallpaper, the d├ęcor in the room, and thinking, ‘You are the most ungrateful little bastard. You complain about everything. This boy has never complained about contracting HIV and AIDS from a blood transfusion. He’s never complained, he’s only encouraged people…You are a piece of sh*t.’ And that’s what I felt about myself.”

Six months later, John began his process to sobriety. Since then, he has been sober for almost three decades.

Today Elton John focuses on philanthropy and being a father

It’s hard to tell what John’s life would have been like had he not stayed away from cocaine, though John has shared that he is now grateful for being able to stay alive after all these years.

He has been giving back to the world after becoming sober. In 1992, he started the Elton John AIDS Foundation to support people living with HIV. To raise awareness and money for the foundation, John often hosts galas and events that have become buzzworthy in Hollywood.

Additionally, John’s family life seems to be going strong as well. He is currently married to his husband, David Furnish, and is also a father to two children: Zachary (b. 2010) and Elijah (b. 2013). John has shared that he has plans to retire so that he can devote a lot of time to taking care of his kids.