Justin Bieber Said He Was ‘Really Suicidal’ as a Teen: ‘I Was Just Suffering’
Justin Bieber became famous at a young age and found himself in a spotlight that wasn’t always kind. In the new YouTube docuseries Next Chapter, Bieber opened up about the bullying he endured during those early years and how detrimental it was to his mental health.
Justin Bieber said he was bullied
Bieber’s rise to fame was meteoric but those early years were difficult for him. As he was bursting onto the scene, he was also heavily criticized by haters. Bieber discussed what it felt like at 15 to have so many people bullying him.
“I was so surrounded. Millions of people in the audience, but I still felt lonely, I still felt misunderstood, I still felt hurt,” he explained. “I had no idea that this life would take me by storm. I had no idea that I would get sucked up by all of this stuff.”
“There were so many people who were just so mean. Random people saying like, ‘You suck! You look like a girl!,’” Bieber shared. “I would shake it off like it didn’t bother me but that stuff bothered me and then it affected how I acted and how I treated people.”
He described how that “ongoing cycle” made him “really suicidal.”
“You are this like, star that is supposed to have it all together, and you don’t realize the power of just saying, ‘Hey, this is how I’m feeling,'” he explained. “I just kind of let the insecurities of everything going on dictate how I started to move.”
“There was times when I was really, really suicidal,” he added.
Bieber said he wondered at the time, “Is this pain ever going to go away? It was so consistent, the pain was so consistent.”
Justin Bieber found his way out of that darkness
While he found the scrutiny overwhelming, Bieber said he addressed the mental health struggles he was experiencing and discovered how to find his way out of that dark time.
“I was just suffering, right? So, I’m just like, man, I would rather not feel this than feel this,” Bieber explained.
“I really do believe that God works all things together for good and I think sometimes it’s hard to see that when things are so messy.”
Bieber said he’s ‘in the best place’ now
As for being candid about his mental health, he said he hoped that shedding some light on his experience could help others. “I just would encourage people, like, ‘Hey, if you’re feeling lonely, talk about it. Say it out loud,’” the singer shared. “There’s a freedom in that. I could have avoided a lot of pain.”
Bieber said his faith in God gave him “this overwhelming confidence” to get past those hard times.
“I’m in the best place in my whole life, right now. I’m the most fulfilled. I feel the most stable,” the singer explained. “I feel the most secure. I feel the most confident. I feel so, just, at peace.”
“For the first time in my life, I don’t feel like I’m striving. I feel like I know who God’s called me to be, where I am, where I’m supposed to be. I’m walking in the plans of God.”