Kim Kardashian West Opens Up About Being ‘Embarrassingly Obsessed’ With Fame

There’s no denying that Kim Kardashian West has changed dramatically since 2007: She got married, welcomed four of the most adorable children, and became a household name.

Another thing that has changed for the reality star? Her attitude about fame. The self-proclaimed “selfie queen” seemingly used to live for attention, allegedly staging paparazzi photos and scouring on the internet for the latest reports about herself.

Now, she’s opening up about it all. Kardashian West admitted in the September issue of Vogue Arabia that she used to be “embarrassingly obsessed” with fame.

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Kardashian West’s comments on the limelight

The 38-year-old made the comments to her hubby, Kanye West, who conducted the interview. When he “puts his wife on the spot” about her wealth and affinity for the cameras, Kardashian West admits, “Money was always the goal but I was obsessed with fame, like, embarrassingly obsessed.”

“I do agree that fame can be addictive,” she continued.

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It’s not the first time Kardashian West has admitted such a thing

She also got real about her obsession with fame in a 2016 video shared on her website.

“When I was living on Robertson [Boulevard], it was like paparazzi central,” she recalled of the days when she was BFFs with Paris Hilton (via Us Weekly). “I was living right behind Kitson, and every time I’d go to the gym or go eat, every paparazzi would ask me questions and I would be like, ‘Hey, guys!’ Like, I so wanted the attention.”

Her best friend, Jonathan Cheban, chimed in saying he helped Kardashian chill out. “She was doing walking interviews!” said Cheban. “I was like, ‘What are you doing?!’”

“Jonathan was like, ‘This has got to stop. Do you think Victoria Beckham sits and does all these interviews?’” the KKW Beauty star added. “[He said,] ‘Do you think everyone else has smiles on their faces? You are too happy, you are smiling way too much. Put your sunglasses on. You need a whole makeover and you need to stop talking and stop smiling.’”

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Kanye West also helped her become more private

The reality star said in a 2018 appearance on The Alec Baldwin Show that her relationship with West made her become more private.

She started off by explaining that she used to prioritize being seen in the early 2000s.

“We would get our hair and makeup done after we filmed the show,” she explained (via The Daily Mail). “Then it was like… ‘What is the hottest restaurant in Hollywood? Where can I go? Where can I be seen? Who is there? What are they doing? Who is there?’” 

“Everything had to be public for me back then,” she continued.

But West, who “was very private” outside of work, changed her mindset.

“Now it’s, where can I go on vacation where nobody will see us? All I want is privacy. I never thought that I would be at that point,” she said.

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These days, Kardashian West seems to live a much simpler life. When she’s not hanging out with her kids, she’s studying to become a lawyer. You can read more about her here.