Kourtney Kardashian Is Freaking Out About Turning 40, Says ‘I Wish I Had More Time’

Everyone knows someone who’s had a mid-life crisis. Whether they react to reaching middle age by splurging on a fancy new sports car or by abruptly quitting their job to open an orphanage in a third world country all depends on the person.

For Kourtney Kardashian, turning 40 has forced her to reflect on her life so far — and her future.

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The eldest Kardashian sister has plenty to be thankful for. She has a beautiful home, tons of disposable income, three wonderful kids and a supportive family. Kourtney also has an enviable physique thanks to frequent exercise and her well-known devotion to the keto diet.

But even people who have perfect lives on the outside are wistful about some things. For Kourtney, hitting middle age is making her super introspective.

Kourtney Kardashian is questioning everything in her life

During a sneak peek of the next season’s Keeping Up With the Kardashians, Kourtney tries to explain to Khloe the complicated emotions she’s feeling. But it’s hard for her to find the perfect words.

“I do think that turning 40, like it almost makes you analyze like where you’re at in your life,” Kourtney explains to her younger sister. “It’s just giving me anxiety.”

Khloe asks what specifically she’s worried about and Kourtney struggles to get her point across. “Now that I’m doing Poosh, I just always wish I had more time,” Kourtney says as tears fill her eyes. “I feel like I want to cry.”

Kourtney is happy but feels like something is missing

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Sometimes the thing that’s wrong is hard to pinpoint. That’s how Kourtney feels at least while on the brink of turning 40.

When Khloe inquires if she’s happy, Kourtney is conflicted.

“I mean, I am,” Kourtney replies tearfully. “But then sometimes I’m just like it makes you really like analyze just like where you’re at and then I’m like sometimes, ‘What am I doing?’”

She goes on: “But then sometimes I’m like I’ll just do stupid s— to like distract from really thinking about stuff that is maybe more important. I don’t know. But then half of me is like, ‘Live your life, have fun.’”

Khloe responds by assuring her sister that she’s doing everything as best she can.

The Kar-Jenner family gathered for an epic 40th birthday bash

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Full service.

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Regardless of how she felt about it, Kourtney Kardashian turned 40 just the same and the family reacted the best way they knew how — by throwing a huge party. The celebration included a raunchy themed cake, a performance by Robin Thicke, and very minimal drama. It was clear Kourtney’s moment of self-doubt was behind her — at least for one night.

Kourtney looked stunning in sexy dress and clearly enjoyed her party surrounded by her closest friends and family members. It can be hard getting older, but a good attitude means everything.

“When she talked about turning 40 a while back, she didn’t seem too excited,” a source close to the star told People. “Turning 40 is a big deal. But instead of seeing it as something negative, Kourtney turned it around and she seems very excited about her life just in general.”