Lady Gaga Felt Her Piano ‘Ruined Her Life’ For This Reason

Lady Gaga is one of the most accomplished artists in the music industry today. With millions of records sold and several Grammy awards to her name, her resume speaks for itself.

However, despite all of her success, she still has a hard time accepting the life she’s created at times. 

In fact, the singer had gotten so upset with the way her life has turned out that she blamed her piano for ruining her life. 

Lady Gaga felt like her piano ruined her life

Lady Gaga attends The Fashion Awards 2016 in London, United Kingdom | Stuart C. Wilson/Getty Images

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Gaga opened up about her complicated relationship with her piano during an interview with CBS Sunday Morning. According to Gaga, the instrument has always been special to her. 

“This is the piano I’ve had for so many years, I’ve written so many songs on this piano,” Gaga said, touching the grand piano to her right. “And I think, ‘Oh my gosh, it’s so special, this piano.”

However, while she was recording her most recent album, Chromatica, she began to feel like her piano ruined her life. 

“I don’t know how to explain it, but I went from looking at this piano and thinking, ‘You ruined my life’ … During this time I was like, ‘You made me Lady Gaga,’” Gaga said. “My biggest enemy is Lady Gaga, that’s what I was thinking. My biggest enemy is her. ‘What did you do?’”

She didn’t like how fame changed her life

Gaga hated how her success thrust her into the public eye. She lost all sense of privacy after she became a superstar. 

“You can’t go to the grocery store now,” Gaga said. “If you go to dinner with your family, somebody comes to the table—you can’t have a dinner with your family without it being about you. All the time, it’s about you. And your outfits. ‘Look at your outfits, why you gotta be like that?”

Lady Gaga’s ‘Chromatica’ album is a diary of her emotions 

Gaga’s emotions can be heard anytime a fan listens to Chromatica.

“There’s not one song on that record that’s not true,” Gaga said. “Not one.”

While recording the album, she gave in to feelings of exhaustion and depression. 

“I just—I totally gave up on myself,” Gaga said. “I hated being famous, I hated being a star. I felt exhausted and used up.”

The Academy Award-nominated singer and actress revealed she has PTSD

A lot of Gaga’s feelings stemmed from a sexual assault she experienced when she was much younger. Instead of talking about it, she would engage in self-harm. 

“It’s not always easy, if you have mental issues, to let other people see,” Gaga said. “I used to show, I used to self-harm. I used to say, ‘Look, I cut myself. See I’m hurting.’ … ‘Cause mental health, it’s invisible.”

Luckily, Gaga has a strong support system around her that kept giving her positive affirmations. However, it was difficult for her to believe them. 

“The people around me, they lifted me up and they said, ‘You think you’re drowning, but you’re not. You’re still amazing,’” Gaga said. “I used to go, ‘I’m not amazing. I’m over’”

It appears Gaga is a better place now, but her story should be a lesson that everyone can experience depression, no matter how rich or famous they are. 

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