Lamar Odom Reveals That If It Wasn’t For This One Thing, He Would “100 Percent” Still Be With Khloe Kardashian

Lamar Odom has had to learn to forgive himself for many things he’s done in the past, but the one thing he will always regret is losing Khloé Kardashian.

It’s been three years since their divorce was finalized and there is not a day that has gone by that the NBA player truly misses his ex-wife.

Khloe Kardashian And Lamar Odom Appearance At Perfumania's Boutique At The Block At Orange
Lamar Odom and Khloe Kardashian | Photo by Imeh Akpanudosen/Getty Images

Now that Lamar Odom is opening up about his past struggles as he promotes his new memoir, Darkness to Light, he has shared just how much he’s beating himself up for pushing the reality star away.

Odom is certain that if it wasn’t for the one demon he’s faced for years, he and Khloé Kardashian would still be together today.

His constant drug use was the main factor in their marriage ending

Three years after experiencing the scare of his life due to a drug overdose, Lamar Odom is opening up about his struggles in his brand new memoir, Darkness To Light.

In the book, Odom details many aspects of his life and shares how his cocaine addiction was the main reason why many of his relationships fell through the cracks.

One relationship the NBA player regrets taking advantage of is his marriage to Khloé Kardashian.

The two celebrities had gotten married after dating for a month and stayed happily married for five years.

On the outside, Khloé and Lamar’ relationship looked like it was solid, but behind closed doors, his constant drug use was tearing them apart.

During a recent interview with Access Live, Lamar revealed that he regrets not “taking advantage of being married to that beautiful woman.”

When asked if he thinks that he would still be with Khloé Kardashian if it wasn’t for the drugs and hiding that from her, Lamar simply answered “100 percent.”

Lamar hopes to repair every broken relationship he’s caused

Due to his drug addiction, most of the relationships Lamar Odom has formed over the years have been ruined.

Not only with Khloe Kardashian, but also those close to him and his children.

Now that Lamar has given up the drugs, he hopes to one day repair each relationship he has damaged.

“I hope I can repair the relationship with my family and my children in particular,” Lamar explained.

With Lamar Odom recently revealing that he “still has a lot of love” for Khloé Kardashian, he is confident they would still be together if it wasn’t for his demons.

“You know, when you’re an addict and fighting those demons, you’re not loving yourself. So you can’t even spread the love to someone that’s loving you as such as she loved me,” Lamar shared with Entertainment Tonight.

Though Khloé Kardashian is content living the single lifestyle at the moment, Lamar Odom hopes that they can one day be as close as they once were.

He recently admitted to The Ringer’s Against All Odds with Cousin Sal podcast that Khloé was “still the love of my life.”

Odom also shared that he hopes he’ll reconcile with her one day. “I hope. I wake up hoping that, but you probably would have to ask her.”