Meghan Markle Shares Devastating Experience of Royal Life in the Spotlight: ‘Not Many People Have Asked if I’m OK’

Meghan Markle has faced a ridiculous amount of criticism since she joined the royal family and — no big surprise — it’s taken a toll on the duchess. As a newlywed and a new mom, Markle has found the negativity to be a struggle.

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Markle shares her devastating experience

Getting married and becoming a new mom is an adjustment for anyone — but try doing that in the spotlight of the media and public. Add to that the way that Markle is criticized for her every move and you’d have to imagine it makes for some challenging moments.

Markle admits it’s been difficult, sharing in a sneak peek of the upcoming documentary Harry & Meghan: An African Journey: “Any woman, especially when they are pregnant, you are really vulnerable, so that was made really challenging. And then when you have a newborn, and especially as a woman, it is a lot.”

She continued: “So you add this on top of just trying to be a new mom or trying to be a newlywed, it’s um… Yeah, well, I guess… and also thank you for asking, because not many people have asked if I am OK. But it’s a very real thing to be going through behind-the-scenes.”

ITV’s Tom Bradby asked her if it was “fair to say ‘not really OK,’ as in it’s really been a struggle?” and the duchess responded, “Yes.”

Prince Harry feels the pressure of the spotlight, too

While Markle is adjusting to the royal life, it’s all Prince Harry has ever known, but that doesn’t make things any easier, especially since his mother, Princess Diana, was harassed by the media. That has made his own interactions with the press tense in a way that no one could truly understand.

Prince Harry explained to Bradby how the cameras and the spotlight is “the worst reminder of her life as opposed to the best.”

Bradby asked: “Do you feel at peace in a way yet or is it still a sort of wound that festers?” and Prince Harry’s perspective is heartbreaking.

He answered: “I think probably a wound that festers. I think being part of this family, in this role, in this job, every single time I see a camera, every single time I hear a click, every single time I see a flash it takes me straight back, so in that respect it’s the worst reminder of her life as opposed to the best.”

The royal tour was emotional

Prince Harry’s trip was meaningful because of his deep connection with Africa. He even retraced his mother’s footsteps, which was emotional, as he revealed that “everything” reminds him of her.

He shared: “Being here now, 22 years later, trying to finish what she started will be incredibly emotional. But everything that I do reminds me of her. But as I said, with the role, with the job and the sort of the pressures that come with that I get reminded of the bad stuff, unfortunately.”

He explained while visiting a street in Angola that was once a minefield his mother had walked: “It has been emotional retracing my mother’s steps along this street 22 years on. Being here on this transformed and bustling street… shows the tremendous impact that clearing landmines has on communities and their futures.”