Selena Gomez Reveals What Makes Her Cringe and What She Loves About Her Early Music Career

Selena Gomez has been in the entertainment business for a minute, having come up as a child actor in her Barney and Disney Channel days before beginning her successful music career. She’s opening up about some of the things she loved and definitely some things that make her cringe about those early days.

Selena Gomez attends the premiere of Universal Pictures' "Dolittle" at Regency Village Theatre
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Selena Gomez admits what made her cringe and what she loved

Gomez has some perspective about those early days in the music business and freely admits that there were some cringe-worthy moments in the mix.

In an interview for Dazed’s Spring 2020 issue, Gomez was asked questions by some other famous folks who had a range of interesting questions that allowed the singer to open up.

Finneas O’Connell, Billie Eilish’s Grammy winning brother, asked, “As a musician who has now been performing professionally for over a decade, what is one thing you look back on in your early career and love — and what makes you cringe?”

Gomez shared that there is one thing she loves about those early years, noting, “For the first part of the question, I would say that (I love) my innocence.”

“For the second part,” she continued, “my style.” Gomez elaborated, explaining: “My style of music and my style in general. It was just not a great combination. I’m proud of all the music I released, of course, but it was just such a different time that sometimes when I hear it, I’m like, ‘Oh no!'”

She worried about releasing her new album

During the interview, Gomez was also asked about “the scariest part of releasing an album after four years.” The singer was very concerned about how it would be received, given that she put so much of her personal life into the album.

“That no one would like it and my career as a singer would be over,” she explained, adding, “I genuinely thought that. I worked so, so hard on this album. It could have come out and completely flopped, and then it’s like, well, where do you go from here?”

She added: “I would have questioned everything because I doubt myself and that’s where I would have ended up — in a spiral. So I’m glad that it’s doing well. But I did everything I could to make it as personal and real (as possible).”

She’s ‘grateful’ for some of her struggles

Gomez gained some additional perspective when her song “Lose You to Love Me” came out, like a light bulb moment that allowed her to see how some of the struggles she faced have been important.

“You know, going through the lupus thing and the kidney transplant, I was dealing with fame and with being run-down, dealing with depression, anxiety and other mental health issues that I had. It was all a bit confusing,” she noted.

The song came out and, “I stood back and had this moment, like, ‘Oh… this is a huge reason why I’ve pushed myself through this. This is why,'” Gomez shared. “I was able to release a song that hopefully helps to heal some people, or just lets them know they are not alone.”

The singer continued: “I was actually letting it go personally and when that happened something inside of me just left. And that’s why I am grateful for the chapters of my life.”