Taylor Swift Just Revealed She Struggled With an Eating Disorder

Taylor Swift’s new Netflix documentary, Miss Americana just premiered at Sundance Film Festival and it might be the most revealing thing she’s ever done. Ahead of the release of her seventh album, Lover this past summer, Swift became more outspoken than ever before.

Though she had been silent about politics and LGBTQ rights in the past, she stepped forward on stage, using her platform to make sure that there was no grey area or questions about where she stood on certain issues. She’s also been candid about some of the issues she’s dealt with as a young woman in the music industry and how she felt silenced and put in a box.

Still, Miss Americana goes further than that. In the movie, Swift gets candid about her personal life, including her relationship and her issues with body image, food, and an eating disorder.

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‘Miss Americana’ shows Taylor Swift as she really is

Though Swift has always been vulnerable in her music and lyrics — Miss Americana is on an even deeper personal level. The film will debut on Netflix, Jan. 31.

The description reads, “Miss Americana is a raw and emotionally revealing look at one of the most iconic artists of our time during a transformational period in her life as she learns to embrace her role not only as a songwriter and performer, but as a woman harnessing the full power of her voice.”

Taylor Swift was very unhappy for a long time

There is a reason why the Red singer keeps her personal life, and her relationship with actor Joe Alwyn so private — being public with so many aspects of her life caused her deep anxiety and unhappiness. However, at some point, the 30-year-old songstress decided she could no longer live with a muzzle on her mouth.

“I had to deconstruct an entire belief system,” Swift says in Miss Americana. “Toss is out an reject it. It woke me up from constantly feeling like I was fighting for people’s respect. It was happiness without anyone else’s input.”

Taylor Swift struggled with her body image and an eating disorder

The long-legged singer has always been known for her height and her thin frame. However, Miss Americana is the first time the singer has actually spoken openly about her body image.

“I didn’t know if I was going to feel comfortable with talking about body image and talking about the stuff I’ve gone through in terms of how unhealthy that’s been for me — my relationship with food and all that over the years,” she explained to Variety. In the film she reveals,

I thought that I was supposed to feel like I was going to pass out at the end of a show, or in the middle of it. Now I realize, no, if you eat food, have energy, get stronger, you can do all these shows and not feel (enervated).

Today, “The Man” singer reveals that she’s good with “the fact that I’m a size 6 instead of a size double-zero.” However, when she was a double-zero during her 1989 era, she got annoyed when people expressed concern. She would ask,“‘What are you talking about? Of course I eat….I exercise a lot.’ And I did exercise a lot. But I wasn’t eating.”