Teen Mom 2‘s Kailyn Lowry has been searching for love since she was young teenager. If you ask Lowry about her upbringing, she’ll tell you that she never felt loved and that it had a lasting affect on her.
“I hear people saying all the time that ‘you can’t miss what you’ve never had,’ but in my case, nothing could be farther from the truth. I feel like I have missed being loved my entire life,” she writes.
Why Kailyn Lowry feels she could never get her relationships right
She agrees that there’s a possible correlation between her childhood and her “aimless” search for love once she got older.
“I never took the time to correlate the pain of my past to my present, but with a clearer perspective, it is possible that there are some lines to be drawn. If a girl’s father is her first love, and he becomes the point of reference for how she loves, it makes sense that I was aimlessly in serch of it. I never knew that kind of love,” she wrote.
Lowry continues: “I had no example to mirror. I had only known what I felt in my relationhsips. I knew what I liked and what I didn’t like, and I knew how love at times hurts. I knew that I desired to be loved in a way that I didn’t even know how to recognize.”
Kailyn Lowry’s greatest loves are her children
Though Lowry will forever be in search of the kind of romantic love she craves, she says the greatest love she’s ever experienced is the love she feels for her children.
“I’ve discovered the greatest fulfillment I’ve ever known in giving love to my boys, Isaac, Lincoln, and Lux. I was born to be the light of love in their lives, and I will do just that. Today, I stand in truth to right the wrongs and to ensure that my children know the fullness of love for themselves. I will never allow them to feel the emptiness that I have felt. They deserve so much more. Everything that I have done and everything that I will do is to help them discover love,” she writes.
In living her life and writing A Letter Of Love, Lowry’s come to realize that the search for love is a constant, universal desire. She’s not alone.
“Love is far more than a four letter word. It is the fuel that serves as the source of energy for our existence. Much like air, we all need love. Never forget that you deserve the love that you dream of having. Most importantly, love will not come to you if you haven’t first learned to love yourself. You won’t have to search far; the greatest love already lives inside of you,” she writes.