‘Teen Mom 2’: Why Kailyn Lowry Sometimes Doesn’t Feel Good Enough For Her Son

Teen Mom 2 star Kailyn Lowry has always wanted to be part of a family. She’s said in several interviews, on the show, and in the books she’s written that she didn’t have a good example of what a strong family unit is supposed to look like when she was a little girl. But she’s always strived to set her sons up for success in that regard.

Kailyn Lowry | Bennett Raglin/Getty Images for WE tv
Kailyn Lowry | Bennett Raglin/Getty Images for WE tv

“I’ve managed to assume a great deal of guilt for bringing Linc into a marriage that did not work. Like Isaac, I wanted him to have a family with two loving parents living together. I could not do this if both Javi and I were settling,” she wrote in her most recent book, A Letter Of Love.

When she married Javi Marroquin, Lowry thought she was giving her sons the family she’d always dreamed of. However, Lowry has said, looking back, she always knew things weren’t going to work out between her and Marroquin, and that made her feel like a failure.

Kailyn Lowry and Javi Marroquin try their best to co-parent

Today, she and Marroquin are co-parenting the best they can. And though she’s thankful for the presence of Marroquin and his family, she says their relationship still isn’t without struggles.

“You [Lincoln] have an amazing family on your dad’s side. You’ve lived with your dad, grandparents, and godmother/aunt for almost all of your life. What could be better? I have so much love for your family. I’ll admit that at times life can be frustrating. It’s hard co-parenting with your dad and grandparents, but I am thankful that everyone wants the best for you. Grandparents are always the pushovers, and when grandkids are around them, then can get away with everything. You grandparents are no different,” she wrote.

She also wrote that, because Marroquin’s family has the tendency to spoil her children, she often worries that she comes off as “the mean one.”

“I feel that I am seen as the mean one, the disciplinarian. I’m the one who is at home and sets exact times for routine things. I’m the one who tries to get you to eat healthy foods and not all of the fun stuff. You will learn that moms are this way,” she wrote.

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That worry, for Lowry, sometimes makes her question whether she’s enough for Lincoln.

“Sometimes, I feel as if I’ll never be good enough for you because you’ve got so much when you are with your dad. I just want to best for you; we all do,” she wrote.

But, at the end of the day, Lowry just wants whatever’s best for Lincoln, and for him to grow up to be a good man.

“I want you to grow up with discipline, drive, and a true understanding of boundaries and rules. I never want to fail you as a parent in that regard,” she wrote.

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