‘The Bachelorette’: Hannah Brown Feels “Guilty” About This

In fifteen seasons of the hit reality TV show, The Bachelorette, nobody has been put through the wringer quite as much as 24-year-old Hannah Brown. Through her season, she faced slut-shaming, frequent gaslighting courtesy of Luke P., lying contestants, and more. Just when Brown thought she’d found “fierce love”, the rug was pulled out from under her.

Hannah Brown on The Bachelorette Finale
Hannah Brown | Mark Bourdillon/ABC via Getty Images

Brown’s short-lived engagement

Brown’s former fiance, Jed Wyatt, shocked Bachelor Nation when another woman alerted the media that she was Wyatt’s girlfriend. As Wyatt is an aspiring singer/songwriter, she claimed that Wyatt only used The Bachelorette as an opportunity to help launch his music career. Following the news, Brown immediately broke off her engagement and now is living life as a single lady once again.

Tyler C. is out of the picture for now

Brown, aka Hannah Beast, has been pretty open about the myriad of emotions that she has been feeling post-breakup. Certainly, nobody who signs up to be The Bachelorette factors being single into their plans. It can’t help that another man Brown had feelings for, Tyler C., has been casually dating none other than supermodel, Gigi Hadid. Still, Brown has been committed to focusing on herself and her own needs.

Journaling her feelings on Instagram

To cope with some of the extreme emotions the bachelorette has been feeling, Brown has done some journaling to unpack her feelings. While recently working through some of her emotions, Brown admitted to fans that she was feeling no small amount of guilt. Taking to her Instagram page, Brown shared a stunning picture of herself along with a very personal journal entry with her 2.3 million followers.

Why Brown feels guilty

“I’m living on my own for the first time and shuffling through this life of next steps with press, media, and opportunities galore. I miss my friends and family who have watched my life explode. I feel guilty because I don’t have the time or emotional capacity to fill each of them in on my life right now. I can’t keep up with the people who matter most, because I can barely keep up with my own life right now,” Brown said, citing her guilt about not having enough emotion energy as of late.

View this post on Instagram

Royal In Riga.

A post shared by Hannah Brown (@hannahbrown) on

Uncharted territory

However, despite the trials and tribulations of the last year, Brown made it clear that she had plenty to be grateful for. “I am not complaining about this past year of adventures. The woman who has emerged would shock the mirror-image young girl from a year ago. I have so many blessings to be thankful for. However it’s uncharted territory for me, and it’s been hard to really process what the heck is going on,” the bachelorette confessed.

Life after The Bachelorette

Brown ended on a note that almost everyone can relate to, that it’s more than okay to be human. “Maybe I needed to write this out to remind myself I’m human and it’s okay to be overwhelmed. And maybe, I just needed to remind you guys too. Life is beautiful but wild. I think it’s okay to be strong-to know you’re strong-but to still feel weak simultaneously. I believe that’s when the magic happens,” the former beauty queen ended her post.

View this post on Instagram

Honest policy: I’m struggling. Life is so different. Since last August, I’ve been a pageant queen, a bachelor contestant, and the Bachelorette. I’ve been in love with multiple people, I got engaged, I broke off an engagement, and I shared it all with millions of people. My faith has been questioned by thousands who don’t know my heart, and my transparency with my decisions has labeled me promiscuous. Simultaneously, I’ve become a role model for young women and started bigger conversations around faith, and sex. // I’m living on my own for the first time and shuffling through this life of next steps with press, media, and opportunities galore. I miss my friends and family who have watched my life explode. I feel guilty because I don’t have the time or emotional capacity to fill each of them in on my life right now. I can’t keep up with the people who matter most, because I can barely keep up with my own life right now. // I am not complaining about this past year of adventures. The woman who has emerged would shock the mirror-image young girl from a year ago. I have so many blessings to be thankful for. However it’s uncharted territory for me, and it’s been hard to really process what the heck is going on. // Maybe I needed write this out to remind myself I’m human and it’s okay to be overwhelmed. And maybe, I just needed to remind you guys too. Life is beautiful, but wild. I think it’s okay to be strong-to know you’re strong-but to still feel weak simultaneously. I believe that’s when the magic happens. My spirit has opportunity to grow and blossom from this place. Healing and restoration can happen. I can rest knowing that My Savior has compassion and wants to help and love me through this journey. I’ve just got to let Him. I don’t know if I have been lately— but I am now because honestly, I think I would give out if I didn’t. So yeah, I’m not going to struggle to disguise my weakness— I’m just gonna give over the keys to my main man Jesus and let him bless me through this ride. Isaiah 54:10

A post shared by Hannah Brown (@hannahbrown) on

Honestly, we couldn’t have said it better ourselves. We hope the bachelorette continues to give herself adequate space and grace to be human. Here’s hoping that Brown’s next chapter is even better than her last.