‘The Pioneer Woman’ Ree Drummond Revealed She Had Postpartum Depression

The Pioneer Woman star Ree Drummond usually appears happy and carefree, but there was a time when this wasn’t the case. Here’s what the Food Network star once said about her struggle with postpartum depression.

Ree Drummond says she started to feel sad on her way home from the hospital

The Pioneer Woman star Ree Drummond | Tyler Essary/NBC/NBCU Photo Bank via Getty Images
The Pioneer Woman star Ree Drummond | Tyler Essary/NBC/NBCU Photo Bank via Getty Images

In her book Black Heels to Tractor Wheels, Drummond recalls the day she and her husband, Ladd Drummond (also known as Marlboro Man), took their first-born daughter, Alex, home from the hospital. Drummond says she felt like she should have been happy, but she didn’t feel the way she thought a new mother should feel.

 “I should have been so happy—I had the guy and the baby and she was healthy and the sun was shining—but it didn’t feel right to me, the whole leaving-the-hospital thing,” wrote Drummond. “I wasn’t ready at all. I’d just gotten used to the beeping of the monitors and the coziness of the warm, secure hospital room.”

Drummond says she was used to being in a safe environment where the nurses checked on her regularly and people where there around the clock to take care of her. The “accidental country girl” says part of her reluctance to go home stemmed from the uncertainty that awaited her at home once she settled into her new life as a mother.

Ree Drummond says she felt alone

Ree Drummond |Bryan Bedder/Getty Images for Hearst
Ree Drummond |Bryan Bedder/Getty Images for Hearst

Although Drummond was with Ladd, she says she felt alone. Dark emotions began to grip her as she and her husband drove away from the hospital and toward their home. “When Marlboro Man pulled away from the hospital, it hit me: instantly, I felt desperate and alone,” said Drummond in her book.

 “Pressing my face against the window, I acted like I was asleep… and quietly sobbed the whole way home. I wanted my mom, but I’d pushed her away to the point where she was keeping her distance out of respect for my wishes.” Drummond says she wished she hadn’t pushed her mother away and she wanted her to be with the family during that moment.  

Drummond says she also found breastfeeding to be challenging. “My milk had burst onto the scene with a vengeance and eating became the baby’s new vocation,” Drummond said. “The next two weeks of her life marked the end of my life as I knew it; I was up all night, a hag all day, and Marlboro Man was completely on is own. I wanted nothing to do with anyone on earth, my husband included.”

Food provided comfort for Ree Drummond

Drummond says she found comfort in the food her family sent to her during her recovery. Casserole and angel food cake proved to be a lifesaver. “Marlboro Man and I ate pieces of casserole his mom had left in our fridge earlier in the day,” wrote Drummond. “For dessert we feasted on a homemade angel food cake his grandmother, Edna Mae, had brought by. Edna Mae’s angel food cakes were light… fluffy… perfect… It was the lifeblood for my postpartum body.”

Another food that brought comfort and joy to Drummond were her mother’s cinnamon rolls. “When I sunk my fork into a finished roll and took my first bite, I swear I heard the comforting voice of my mom, who I realized, had drenched my childhood with more love and affection and fun than any child should have,” Drummond said. “I imagined her smile… and smiled, too.”

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