So, when McCain was absent from the show, viewers thought that the animosity had gotten to be too much and she was making an exit from The View altogether.
But on Friday, the talk show co-host published a personal essay in The New York Times that revealed the real reason she had been missing.
In the essay, “Meghan McCain: What I Learned From My Miscarriage,” she recalled having to sit for a photoshoot while suffering from her miscarriage.
“I knew my father would have been proud,” she said in the essay. “I look back at those pictures now, and I see a woman hiding her shock and sorrow. I am posed for the camera, looking stern and strong, representing my fellow conservative women across the country. But inside, I am dying. Inside, my baby is dying.”
McCain’s pregnancy journey
“I knew I was pregnant before I formally knew I was pregnant. My body told me in all the ways women are familiar with,” she wrote. “It told me in the same ways that I was miscarrying. The confirmation from my doctor came the day of that photo shoot, at the worst possible time.”
Because of the miscarriage, she missed work a few times.
“This was not supposed to be public knowledge,” she said. “I have had my share of public grief and public joy. I wish this grief — the grief of a little life begun and then lost — could remain private. I am not hiding anymore. My miscarriage was a horrendous experience and I would not wish it upon anyone.”
What does McCain hope opening up about her miscarriage does?
McCain hoped that speaking about her miscarriage will help the topic become more normalized.
“Even to this day, the subject of a miscarriage carries so much cultural taboo,” she wrote. “Miscarriage is a pain too often unacknowledged. Yet it is real, and what we have lost is real. We feel sorrow and we weep because our babies were real. They were conceived, and they lived, fully human and fully ours — and then they died. We deserve the opportunity to speak openly of them, to share what they were and to mourn.”
After the article came out, she took to Instagram to thank her fans for their support and well wishes.
“Thank you for so many beautiful and kind responses to my New York Times @nytimes op-ed about my recent miscarriage,” she wrote. “Ben and I are the luckiest, most incredibly blessed people in the world surrounded by love and support.”
Though coming out about something so tragic was hard, McCain felt that it was the right thing to do.
“My hope is by continuing to share grief and loss, and addressing these taboo subjects head on it will help people who have experienced the same to feel less alone. None of us are alone in this. I was petrified to share my story publicly but I never, ever let fear dictate my life choices. I will always take the leap, I will always roll the dice.”
She continued, thanking her husband, Ben Domenech, for being there for her during the difficult time.
“And to this man who loves my wild heart, has never tried to change a single thing about me, and continues to be the greatest source of strength, love and faith a woman could ever ask for ~ I thank God for sending you to me every day, Ben. #rideordie.”