Whitney Port Opens Up To Fans About Recent Miscarriage and Shares Why She Still Feels “Guilt”
Whitney Port is getting very personal with fans.
The reality star recently took to Instagram to share some very heartbreaking news surrounding her recent miscarriage.
While the tragic event is still pretty fresh, Port is learning to accept her loss and continue on with her own personal journey.
Whitney Port has been overcome with emotions these past few weeks
While The Hills and The Hills: New Beginnings has delved into the life of Whitney Port, there are just some things the reality star would rather share on her own.
One of those things happens to be her personal journey when it comes to pregnancy.
Even though Port is the proud parent of her two-year-old son, Sonny, the reality star recently opened up about her most recent miscarriage.
On June 23, Port took to Instagram to share a clip from her With Whit podcast detailing the emotions she experienced after she suffered a miscarriage two weeks prior.
Whitney Port wrote, “The amount of various emotions I felt in the past couple weeks have been extreme…from shock to sadness to relief, which then led to guilt for feeling that relief.”
“My identity has been shaken in regards to who as a mom and human being,” the reality star continued. “I’m currently in the process of learning to accept that my feelings are valid no matter what they are. Whether or not people feel the same way as me or not. They are my personal emotions that are the result from my own journey.”
During the podcast, Whitney Port explained that having a second child “really scared” her, especially after experiencing a hard pregnancy and first year with Sonny.
The reality star then shared that she soon stopped taking birth control and told herself, “If this happens on its own, then amazing, it is meant to be and we will have a second child. And if it doesn’t happen, then we’ll discuss it when we’re both ready to have it.”
Port felt both sadness and relief after her miscarriage
While on a work trip in New York City, Whitney Port learned that she was pregnant and again felt “scared” and overcome with guilt.
“I felt extremely ashamed and guilty that I felt this way,” Whitney said. “And so, these layers of shame and guilt make it so hard to talk about.”
Even though the thought of having another child was scary at first, Port was soon overcome with excitement.
“What’s weird is that I was having massive pregnancy symptoms for the first six weeks, I was really nauseous and really exhausted,” the reality star shared with listeners. “And all of the sudden they kind of just stopped, and I was like, ‘Oh my God, maybe the second pregnancy is gonna be amazing and I’m not gonna feel all this crap that I felt.’ And I was really thinking glass half full at that moment.”
Port then shares that two weeks ago while in Vermont, she told her husband, “I feel like I’m not pregnant.” Then added that she felt like she didn’t have “any symptoms anymore.”
“And then the next day, I woke up and I saw blood on my underpants,” Port said. “So, when I was pregnant with Sonny, I had the same thing happen at the same exact time. I called my doctor and he said spotting is completely normal and it can be the period of implantation or just your body getting rid of old blood, so it can be a normal thing.”
After waking up the next morning and seeing more blood, Whitney Port then goes to the emergency room a second time where she learns of her miscarriage.
“And we got confirmation that my blood level was at a 3,000 and at the point I was in my pregnancy it’s supposed to be at about 10 to 20,000, and we found out that there was no heartbeat and there should’ve been a heartbeat at that point,” Port explains.
While Whitney Port did admit that this pregnancy was not planned, the podcast host is still overcome with emotions after experiencing this heartbreaking event.
“I can’t say I feel relieved,” Port shared when talking about her current feelings. “I feel sad because the whole thing is just traumatic, it’s traumatic to think about your body going through this and something being in you that could have been someone like a Sonny or something. I feel sad but, I do also feel happy that my body is still my own right now and that this isn’t an extra thing we didn’t plan for.”