Why Camila Cabello Chose to Share Her Battle With Anxiety on Instagram

“Havana” singer Camila Cabello recently opened up about a personal struggle on Instagram. Many popular singers have publicly shared their stories on dealing with anxiety, including Selena Gomez, Demi Lovato, Zayn Malik, and Ariana Grande, according to Everyday Health. Cabello also decided to discuss her issues with anxiety in a revealing Instagram post

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It started in childhood

Cabello wrote a lengthy Instagram post, sharing with her over 36 million followers her struggle with anxiety since she was a child. “I was generally incredibly nervous and socially anxious when I was little; and people always have this look of disbelief when I tell them that,” she wrote.

In an interview with People earlier this year, Cabello described her younger self as extremely introverted. “I used to be cripplingly shy,” she told People. “I feel like even though I often pushed myself, I missed out on some life experiences, or didn’t enjoy them as much as I could’ve.”

The singer told her followers that she was afraid to sing in front of people when she was a child, and wouldn’t even let her parents hear her sing. “I never ever sang in front of my parents or friends and would get flustered when they would ask me to,” Cabello wrote in the post. “I sang in my room when my parents left for Walmart and cried when one day I saw them filming me through the crack of the door.”

Two Camilas

In her post, Cabello described herself as two individuals. “I feel like my whole life there’s been two Camila’s in me. There’s little Camila that is terrified of the unknown, is aware of all the ways everything can go wrong, (actually can picture them vividly lol), and thinks it’s safer to stay home than to play ball,” she told her followers.

Cabello goes on to describe her ‘other’ persona – the one that pushes her to move beyond her fears. “Then there’s the other Camila. And she knows what she wants out of life, is aware of how little time I have to let little Camila run the show while time passes by, and grabs young me by the hand and forces her out the door saying ‘Let’s go. You’ll survive, and I’m not gonna miss out on this. Let’s go.’ And that is literally how I can sum up how I’ve gotten to this point in my life,” she said in the post.

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I remember growing up hearing stories of the singers I loved, all the stories sounded the same, kids who would grow up performing for their families and putting on talent shows for their parents when they were little who grew up to be dazzling to me. I was the opposite, I never ever sang in front of my parents or friends and would get flustered when they would ask me to, I sang in my room when my parents left for Walmart and cried when one day I saw them filming me through the crack of the door, I got teary eyed when people sang happy birthday to me because people looking at me actually made me overwhelmed. I was generally incredibly nervous and socially anxious when I was little; and people always have this look of disbelief when I tell them that. I did an interview the other day where I got it again, the interviewer said something along the lines of “So… how’d you end up here?” The answer is, I feel like my whole life there’s been two Camila’s in me. There’s little Camila that is terrified of the unknown, is aware of all the ways everything can go wrong, (actually can picture them vividly lol), and thinks it’s safer to stay home than to play ball. Then there’s the other Camila. And she knows what she wants out of life, is aware of how little time I have to let little Camila run the show while time passes by, and grabs young me by the hand and forces her out the door saying “Let’s go. You’ll survive, and I’m not gonna miss out on this. Let’s go.” And that is literally how I can sum up how I’ve gotten to this point in my life. (I’m talking about as a person, not success.) remember feeling discouraged when I felt like some people were just “born” to do things. That they always had it in them. “They were always this outgoing, they always loved to entertain, they were always this bold, they were always this outspoken.” (…..continue)

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Posting for a purpose

The “Señorita” singer was motivated to share her story in the hopes of helping others with the same struggles. She reminded her followers not underestimate themselves, and to realize that each individual has the power to reach their goals. “I remember feeling discouraged when I felt like some people were just ‘born’ to do things, they always had it in them. ‘They were always this outgoing, they always loved to entertain, they were always this bold, they were always this outspoken,’” she wrote. “The truth is you decide who you’re going to be. Every day.”

Cabello went on to urge her fans to find the ‘other’ person within themselves, as she has with herself, to fight their fears. “I’m not talking about talent or success. I just mean the type of person you’re going to be. If you haven’t been very brave, or very social, or wild, or an adventure seeker, if you describe yourself as the opposite of those things… it doesn’t mean you can’t be,” she wrote. “The other you needs to grab little you by the hand, yank you by the hairs and tell you, ‘Let’s go.'”

Cabello was very clear in her reason for publicly posting about her anxiety issues. “I felt like sharing because I think sometimes we see other people do things and think ‘Ah, well… that’s just not me. I’ve never been like that.’ It’s NOT TRUE,” she said in the post. “I’m telling you. I went from never wanting to sing in front of my family to being addicted to performing, from being too anxious to hang out with new people to… still being a little anxious but having THE BEST time and making irreplaceable memories… The essence of me is the same, but I’ve changed so much as a person.”

She concluded her post with an encouraging message. “You choose who you’re going to be… Force yourself to do what you’re afraid of, always – and go after what you want and who you want to be, because you’re worth that,” Cabello wrote. “You’re worth the fight. It’s the most worthwhile one there. Love you.”

Cabello’s bravery is sure to be met with support and gratitude from others who needed those words of wisdom.