You Won’t Believe Why Princess Diana Never Felt Good Enough
Princess Diana was thrust into a life of privilege and intrigue at just 19 years old. Her engagement with Prince Charles came swiftly and before she knew it, Diana was married at only 20. She had hope that things were going to be the fairy tale all little girls hope for when they grow up, but it was anything but. Diana lived a surprisingly lonely life as the Princess of Wales and she never felt good enough in the life she chose. It may be hard for some people to believe that Diana felt isolated even as the most adored woman of her time, but the facts speak for themselves.
Princess Diana was put up on a pedestal
Princess Diana transformed from a timid child to a full-blown fashion icon almost overnight. No one helped her figure any of it out either, she had to learn on her own as she went. She became the most photographed woman in the world and the pressure was on. Obviously, anyone in a position on such a high pedestal would have major doubts about themselves. Diana was especially hard on herself, and even developed an eating disorder from all the stress.
She finally opened up about her side of things as the Princess of Wales in her biography that Andrew Morton wrote called Diana: Her True Story – In Her Own Words. Diana spoke in taped conversations with Dr. James Colthurst so Morton would have material to pull from for the eye-opening work. Morton even included some of Diana’s transcribed words about her life in the book.
Diana struggled with the pressure
She spoke about how she felt about herself and the enormous amount of stress she was under. Diana was getting it from all sides, her family, the media, and the world. She was having major doubts about herself and it was all too much for her.
Princess Diana actually said she “hated herself” at one point and she was clearly in a dark place. “I hated myself so much I didn’t think I was good enough, I thought I wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t a good enough mother – I mean doubts as long as one’s leg,” Diana said.
Princess Diana felt she had nowhere to turn for support
She felt she was alone and isolated in the Royal Family. She couldn’t talk to anyone about how she was feeling, even her own family or her former roommates who were once so close with her. “She sensed that, like the rest of the world, they wanted the royal fairytale to work,” Morton wrote. “They believed in the myth and Diana could not bring herself to tell them the awful truth. She was terribly alone and dreadfully exposed. Inexorably her thoughts turned to suicide, not because she wanted to die but because she desperately wanted help.”
Diana’s pull towards self-harm
Princess Diana developed bulimia nervosa, a binge and purge disorder early on in the marriage. The eating disorder happened due to all the pressure put on Diana as well as her husband’s affair he was carrying on with Camilla Parker Bowles. But the destructive behavior didn’t stop there.
Diana wasn’t getting the help she needed and tried to commit suicide on more than one occasion. Eventually, Princess Diana was able to overcome everything, but not before it became clear to her that she wasn’t going to get any help or sympathy from her husband, which tore them apart even further.
It was all a vicious cycle. Diana wasn’t getting what she needed from her marriage with literally no emotional support system, and in turn, she learned to handle things with self-harm. Princess Diana overcame it all eventually, and she even received her freedom from Prince Charles when they divorced in 1996. But she would only get to enjoy it for a little while when she died in a tragic car accident on August 31, 1997.