Gisele Bündchen Says She Lost Herself When She Became a Mother

Gisele Bündchen, the former supermodel currently married to New England Patriots quarterback Tom Brady, is a mother to two children: Benjamin and Vivian Lake. But no matter how much money or fame you have, motherhood gets the best of everyone sometimes. Bündchen recently came clean that she “lost herself” when she became a mother.

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Bündchen loves motherhood, but it wasn’t always easy. | Gisele Bündchen via Instagram

“It was like a part of me died”

In Bündchen’s new book, Lessons: My Path to a Meaningful Life, she revealed that motherhood came with some major stresses. Bündchen said she had always wanted to be a mom, but felt that actually having a little baby was a shock she may not have entirely expected. Growing up, Bündchen had always been extremely independent. She started her career at a young age and was out on her own, doing whatever she wanted, for most of her life. Then, when she had a baby, she realized things wouldn’t be that way anymore.

“ … Now I had this little being, and I suddenly felt l couldn’t do other things and that was very hard for me,” she wrote in her book. Bündchen loved the idea of being a mom but had trouble understanding motherhood when she first gave birth.

Motherhood called for her to make some big changes in her life

Bündchen was at a crossroads and constantly felt guilty over her children. She shared that she felt guilty when she would leave them, even if it was only for a very short time. But she was still working, and she felt guilty about bringing them to work, too. She said specifically that she’d feel bad taking her baby on a plane and others having to hear her son cry. She couldn’t quite figure out how to grasp having a demanding career and being a mother. But being a mother meant that she had to put her kids first. It meant that both she and Brady had to figure out how to get into the rhythm of parenting.

She said parenthood took a toll on her marriage

Brady already had a son, Jack, when Bündchen gave birth to their first child together — a son named Benjamin. Brady had some knowledge of how to be a father, but everything was new for Bündchen. She said in her book that it didn’t always make her the nicest partner. For a time, parenthood was taking a toll on their marriage. Plus, Brady was a full-time NFL player, so he had an extremely demanding career, too. It took a while for them to get in the swing of things, but eventually, they figured it out. A few years after Benjamin was born, Bündchen gave birth to the couple’s second child, a daughter named Vivian Lake. Plus, she is also a step-mother to Brady’s son, Jack, from a previous relationship.

Despite the ups and down, Bündchen loves being a mother

It took a while to figure out motherhood, and Bündchen has dealt with some other troubles throughout her life, including depression and anxiety. However, she has made it through all the struggles that come with adulthood, and at the end of the day, she loves being a mother. She focuses a lot on both meditation and a healthy diet. She has said both help her to maintain a physically healthy lifestyle but also a mentally healthy one. Motherhood is challenging, but the reward is always worth it.

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