Adele fans around the world are running on very little sleep today as 30 just dropped last night. The long-awaited new album chronicles the singer’s emotions and thoughts surrounding her divorce from her ex-husband, Simon Konecki. Though Adele knew she no longer wanted to be married to Konecki, she worried about the effect it would have on their son, Angelo. Her track “My Little Love” is an ode to Angelo and a lullaby for any parent trying to explain divorce.
The lyrics and their meanings
From the moment the song begins, it’s clear that it’s very personal between her and Angelo.
“My little love,” the singer croons. “I see your eyes widen like an ocean. When you look at me so full of my emotions. I’m findin’ it hard to be here sincerely. I know you feel lost, it’s my fault completely.”
She goes on to describe Angelo’s confusion at his parents’ split.
“I don’t recognize myself in the coldness of the daylight,” the song continues. “So I ain’t surprised you can read through all of my lies. I feel so bad to be here when I’m so guilty. I’m so far gone and you’re the only one who can save mе.”
Adele included voice notes on ‘My Little Love’
The most heartbreaking parts of the song are the voice notes between Adele and Angelo that the “Easy on Me” singer peppers throughout the tune.
“I feel like you don’t love me,” Angelo says in one of the notes. “Why do you feel likе that?” Adele responds, before adding later “You know mommy doesn’t like anyone else like I like you, right?”
On another, she tells Angelo that she’s been having a lot of big feelings lately. “Like how?” Angelo asks. “Just like, mummy, I’m, I’m, the feeling that I . . . I feel a bit confused.” When Angelo asks why, she responds, “I don’t know. And I feel like I don’t really know what I’m doing.” There’s a pause before Angelo says, “Oh, at all?”
In one portion of the song, she apologizes to Angelo.
“Tell me, do you, you feel the way my past aches?” she croons. “When you lay on me, can you hear the way my heart breaks? I wanted you to have everything I never had. I’m so sorry if what I’ve done makes you feel sad.”
Explaining divorce has been tough for Adele
Before the release of her album, Adele spoke to Vogue about how hard it has been to explain to Angelo why things changed at home.
“He has so many simple questions for me that I can’t answer because I don’t know the answer,” she told the outlet. “Like, why can’t we still live together? That’s just not what people do when they get divorced. But why not? I’m like, I don’t f*cking know. That’s not what society does. And: why don’t you love my dad anymore? And I’d be like, I do love your dad. I’m just not in love. I can’t make that make sense to a nine-year-old.”
But ultimately, the split was partially so Angelo could see what real love looks like.
“I was just going through the motions and I wasn’t happy,” she said. “Neither of us did anything wrong. Neither of us hurt each other or anything like that. It was just: I want my son to see me really love, and be loved. It’s really important to me. I’ve been on my journey to find my true happiness ever since.”