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Colton Underwood opens up about a lot in his book, The First Time: Finding Myself and Looking for Love on Reality TV.

“Identity, self-value, bullying, football, family (my parents [sic] divorce), production, behind the scenes info, Bachelor (obviously), Cassie, and so much more.” –Underwood describing what his book’s about to an Instagram follower.

Cassie Randolph and Colton Underwood | Jerod Harris/Getty Images for Tubi
Cassie Randolph and Colton Underwood | Jerod Harris/Getty Images for Tubi

How Cassie Randolph feels about Colton Underwood’s book, ‘The First Time’

A source told Us Weekly that Cassie Randolph, Underwood’s season winner and girlfriend, is “so proud” of him for being vulnerable in his book.

“Cassie is so proud of Colton for writing a book and being vulnerable with the world,” the source told the publication. “She knows it’s his story to tell and she would never stop him from sharing any of the details that got him to where he is today.”

In The First Time, Underwood dives into some of his past romantic relationships, including his relationship with Olympic gymnast Aly Raisman. He’s honest about how attracted to her he was.

“The more time I spent with Aly, the more attractive I found her. She was funny, sharp, and cool about things,” he wrote. “She was very mature for her age, no doubt from having to grow up fast. She was together. She worked hard in and out of the gym.”

The source says Randolph is unbothered by the sections about Underwood’s past loves. She’s happy for her boyfriend and his huge accomplishment.

“Cassie was with Colton every step of the way as he worked on the book and was very supportive throughout the entire process,” they said. “It’s been a really exciting time for him and he is thrilled about the positive reaction the book has received.”

Colton Underwood discusses his sexuality in ‘The First Time’

Something else Underwood discusses in his book is his sexuality. He was bullied “early on in grade school and even in high school,” he told the publication. He addressed his sexuality in his book because people started saying Underwood was gay again when he was the bachelor.

“[The rumors] came back up when I was the Bachelor,” he told Us Weekly. “I think it was very easy for fans and very easy for people to just — [when] they don’t understand something or if they don’t agree with somebody, they have to, in their mind, get from point A to point B. So point B is, ‘Oh, he’s gay. That’s why he’s a virgin. He’s just hiding it from us.’”

Underwood said being the bachelor helped him realize he’s straight.

“[The show taught me] that I’m straight and I’m very, very attracted to Cassie [Randolph] and women — but it would have been OK if it would have been the other way too,” he told Entertainment Tonight. “I think that’s the biggest message I have for people.”

Though Underwood and Randolph are not engaged or living together as is typical for most season leads and their winners, they’re happy and taking their relationship at their own pace.

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