‘Below Deck Med’: Jessica More Felt Like She Was Walking on Eggshells and Questioned Her Abilities on the Boat

Third stew Jessica More from Below Deck Mediterranean admitted she felt like she was walking on eggshells and ended up questioning her skills and abilities on the boat.

More offered her thoughts on the Radio Check with Colin Macy-O’Toole podcast about what happened with chef Hindrigo “Kiko” Lorran. Lorran was seemingly fired after his “Vegas” meal flop. Captain Sandy Yawn has come under fire on social media, criticized for being too much of a micromanager when it came to the chef.

Jessica More from 'Below Deck Med
Jessica More | Karolina Wojtasik/Bravo

More told Macy-O’Toole that although she is “Team Kiko,” she understood that he may not have been fully prepared to be a superyacht chef. “Poor Kiko,” she said. “Kiko is like my [most favorite] human ever. So, I think with him … is he 100% ready to be a superyacht chef? No. Are most superyacht chefs ready for that? No. But he’s an amazing chef. And I really think, obviously, he had things to learn, but I think those few things he had to learn got blown out of the water. And it wasn’t necessary. It wasn’t necessary or no one would have noticed. Or it could have been minimized.”

She describes an environment of ‘walking on eggshells’

“I think like with Captain Sandy I just think that dynamic wasn’t really helpful for him and I think it just started to wear on him,” she continued. “I personally, which isn’t shown, I was getting worn down.”

“That’s why I was really testy in this last episode or two,” More said. “Because I was getting worn down. I felt like him and I, it was a lot of pressure and a lot coming down on everything. And walking on eggshells and feeling like nothing was ever good enough.” More was also on the chopping block for a uniform mix-up in the laundry room. Yawn told Ferrier that More needed to get it right or she’d need to replace the third stew.

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“It beats your morale up,” she said. “It’s not motivating. It’s not helpful. It degrades at your morale and your skillset. You start questioning yourself, like everything under the sun you can imagine. You start detriorating in front of everybody. It’s not a good feeling.”

Hannah Ferrier has a panic attack too

The pressure may have also been too much for chief stew Hannah Ferrier. She’s seen having a panic attack in a preview clip.

“I f**king hate this f**king job,” she says while taking a few minutes alone in a preview clip. “This season has made me feel like, I’m losing my mind,” she says in a confessional. She’s later seen in her bunk, placing her hand on her forehead, looking like she’s in distress.

A crew member checks on Ferrier. “I think … it’s a panic attack,” Ferrier sounds like she’s about to hyperventilate. Ferrier also had a panic attack during season 3 after she became concerned that she fell too hard for bosun Conrad Empson.

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At the time she told Decider what she thought triggered the panic attack. “Looking back and watching the season now, actually there was a lot that was different,” she said. “We had the most vile charter guests that we have ever had. The first two weeks I was doing four hours of sleep a night consecutively. Sandy was really quite hard on me throughout the start of the season. Also, you don’t get away. You can’t get away from the cameras, you can’t get away from the work environment, the charter guests just keep coming.”