Below Deck’s Hannah Ferrier Reveals Her Season 3 Anxiety Was Not Because She Fell for Conrad Empson
Hannah Ferrier recently shared that the anxiety she experienced during Below Deck Mediterranean Season 3 was not because she was falling in love with bosun Conrad Empson. Instead, she revealed that her anxiety stemmed from āshowing emotion on camera.ā Viewers witnessed Ferrier hyperventilating and then retreating to her cabin. Thatās when she told Captain Sandy Yawn she was upset because she didnāt like the feeling that she was falling for Empson.
Hannah Ferrier said her anxiety was not because of Conrad Empson
But that wasnāt exactly true. Ferrier actually wanted to break up with Empson, not go further with the relationship. āAnd the hardest thing I found, with my anxiety attacks and stuff like that, is that I need to explain whatās going on with that without talking about the camera,ā she recently said on her Dear Diary, Youāre Effed podcast. āItās like Iām not having an anxiety attack because Iām falling in love with the bosun. Iām having an anxiety attack because I donāt like showing emotion on camera. And Iām worried about how this whole thing is gonna come across. And I donāt really wanna date him anymore. But how do I break up with him on camera? But I canāt talk about it to the cameras to explain my anxiety.ā

She also explained what it was like to deal with issues going on off the boat while filming Below Deck Mediterranean. āItās a reality show,ā she said. āBut itās about our work and for me, I not somebody that would go in and go like blah. This is everything. Or this is all my trauma. This is all my pain, all my hurt. Thatās not me, Iām not that type of person. I think thatās the thing sometimes people donāt remember is thereās things we donāt wanna talk about on camera. And so we could be dealing with something.ā
Hannah Ferrier said her anxiety had nothing to do with āBelow Deck Mediterraneanā
āAnd I had three specific incidences over the five years that were so hard,ā she recalled. āLed to anxiety and things like that because I wasnāt talking about it. And it wasnāt to do with Below Deck. It wasnāt to do with work life. So I donāt wanna bring it up on camera because it involves other people. Iām not out here to go out to people with their issues. But itās who hurts me. So that was really difficult. Itās like people need to understand even though weāre at work, we still have lives.ā
āLike on a normal boat it would probably be 10 times easier,ā she said. āBecause you can take your second stew aside and be like hey this is going on with my family. Or this is going on with my best friend, Iām really struggling. But because thereās a camera there, you canāt do that. So then you bottle it up and thatās when things get like ā¦ā
Hannah Ferrier was grateful for how producers helped her deal with anxiety on āBelow Deck Mediterraneanā
Ferrier shared a sweet photo of how executive producer Nadine Rajabi sat with her when she first experienced anxiety on the show. āThe reality of filmingĀ Below Deck!ā Ferrier captioned the moment on herĀ Instagram story in May. āProduction trying to feed me when I have anxiety and Iām not eating.āĀ
She also added context to how she dealt with anxiety. āSeason 1 I will never forget this and I donāt think Iāve ever told anyone this,ā she said on theĀ Berning in HellĀ podcast. āI had the worst panic attack, and I was laying down behind a couch on the boat. And I removed my microphone, and I could hear the cameras trying to find me.ā
āI was having an anxiety and panic attack,ā she continued. āAnd trying to just breathe but I didnāt want them to hear where I was. That was probably a sign I shouldnāt have gone back,ā she chuckled. āWhen you are cowering behind a couch on like day 30 of your job. Maybe leave?ā