Billie Eilish Said She Felt the ‘Most Vulnerable’ the Week After She Won Her Grammy Awards

Since the release of her Grammy-winning debut album, When We Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?, Billie Eilish has become one of the most popular artists in the entertainment industry. Her sudden success has cast her into the limelight, and the newfound fame has been a lot for the young star to deal with.

There’s a certain level of vulnerability that every celebrity feels living in the public eye, because all of their words and actions are scrutinized by the public. Eilish has spoken on the challenges of fame numerous times but recently noted that she felt most vulnerable the week after she won five Grammys in 2020. 

According to the “No Time To Die” singer, the influx of both positive and negative feedback to her wins left her feeling very vulnerable. 

Bille Eilish said she felt the most vulnerable after the 2020 Grammy Awards

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Billie Eilish poses with the awards for Album Of The Year, Record Of The Year, Best New Artist, Song Of The Year and Best Pop Vocal Album during the 62nd Annual Grammy Awards | FREDERIC J. BROWN/AFP via Getty Images

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Eilish recently sat down for an interview with Vanity Fair, during which she admitted that the week after the 2020 Grammys was the most vulnerable moment of her career.  

“Why?” Eilish asked, laughing. “Well, because I had just lived through an unbelievable experience, and I was filled with joy and excitement, and shock and disbelief. And getting compliments left and right.”

Although Eilish had gotten a ton of compliments for her Grammy wins, she also received a bunch of negative comments from detractors on the internet. 

“And at the same time, the entire internet was telling me I didn’t deserve it,” Eilish said. “So it was a weird week, it was very… It was weird, but who got the Grammys? Me.”

She has a love-hate relationship with internet critics

Eilish has never been shy about her complex relationship with the internet. Later in the interview when she was asked what she hates about the internet, she had a candid response. 

“Ooh girl, I hate a lot of things with the internet,” Eilish said. “I love the internet too, but God, what do I hate the most? I think the… I just think everybody believing everything they see, just because it’s written down somewhere. It could be the biggest lie ever, and it’s like, you just believe it if it’s on the internet, it’s weird.”

She searches her own name on Google to see what’s being said about her

Although Eilish isn’t a fan of the false things that are sometimes written about her, she still likes to know what’s being said. She revealed in a separate interview with Vanity Fair that she often searches her name on Google to see what’s been written recently. 

However, she only looks at the titles, never the actual stories. 

“Only just the titles, because they’re what’s funny,” Eilish admitted. “Like, I’m not trying to see myself on Twitter, that is a no go. Oh my gosh, don’t wanna see that, because that s— is mean.”

When Eilish needs a good laugh, all she has to do is search her name. 

“I look myself up to laugh, but I really don’t want to actually see what’s being said. But it is good for a good laugh,” Eilish added.