In a recent Q&A the reality star did with his Instagram followers, he said he regrets being on Paradise at all.
‘Bachelor in Paradise’ did a number on Blake Horstmann’s mental health
After BIP, Horstmann says he was in a bad place. He says he’ll “never be the same.”
“How long did it take you to come back from the experience on BIP emotionally?” asked one fan.
“Honestly I’ll never be the same. None of us are after an experience like the show. So I’ll never be ‘back,’ but that’s not necessarily a bad thing. You live and you learn,” he wrote in response.
“How did you recover your mental health after BIP?” asked another fan.
“I have become very passionate about mental health especially in the youth. I can’t imagine being young and having to deal with social media,” he wrote.
Horstmann continued: “People like @lorikpublicrelatons, @danij002 and of course my mom @baileyhors and sister @tthorstmann and others would talk for hrs with me on FaceTime while I laid in bed. I felt incredibly alone bc everyone was taking my side privately, but no one was publicly. Those people helped me not feel as alone.”
“I was in a REALLYYYY bad place and luckily I have an amazing family and a lot of close friends,” he continued. “I also went to therapy! Don’t be afraid of that!”
“I am still working on it. I am still going to therapy and have made huge strides,” Horstmann added.
Will Blake Horstmann ever go on ‘Bachelor in Paradise’ again?
Another Instagram user asked Horstmann if he’d ever consider going on Bachelor in Paradise again in the future.
“After what happened last year, would you do BIP again? You deserved better,” they wrote.
“Thank you for saying that,” replied Horstmann. “I def wouldn’t do it this year (still have pretty bad PTSD).”
He continued: “I don’t even know if I would do it in the future either because I don’t know if I could be myself. It’s hard for me to trust anybody now let alone producers and anyone in front of cameras…. People change dramatically in front of cameras…”
So it sounds like Horstmann won’t be returning to Mexico anytime soon (if ever). For now, the reality star is just trying to live his life without focusing on dating.
“I have decided to stop ‘looking’ for someone. The show kind of puts you in a strange mind frame where you are constantly going over the top trying to find ‘the one.’ There is a lot of single shaming in BN and if you are single there must be something wrong with you bc ‘everyone’ wants to date you,” he wrote on Instagram after a fan asked him if he’s currently “looking for someone.” “Have decided just to live my life the way I want it and let it happen… So we will see.”