The late Carrie Fisher wrote a heartbreaking memoir in 2016, revealing her short-lived affair with Harrison Ford. Fisher was just 19-years-old at the time, fresh out of high school, with little to no experience. Meanwhile, Ford was in his thirties, with a wife and children at home.
As their love affair progressed, Fisher said she became “obsessed” with Ford and that he was the subject of all her fantasies. But sadly, Ford wasn’t looking for anything serious with his Star Wars co-star, which left her with a “familiar feeling of hopelessness.”
And because her feelings for her on-screen lover were so one-sided, Fisher said that she was sorry the affair wasn’t with Mark Hamill instead.
“It might’ve meant something,” she wrote. “Maybe not much, but certainly more.”
How did Carrie Fisher and Harrison Ford’s affair begin?
The story of “Carrison” began at George Lucas‘s thirty-second birthday party. It took place in a small, mustard-colored cafeteria filled with cast and crew members. Fisher says that because she was the only girl at the party, the crew members all piled around her to flirt. As the night went on, they began pressuring Fisher to drink.
They intended to get the princess of the film as drunk as possible. Fisher said that she felt a sense of “danger” at that moment as if the crew members intended to take advantage of her.
Yet, in a typical Harrison Ford fashion, her future on-screen husband swooped in to save the day.
Ford ended up stealing Fisher away from the crew members, and into the back of his car.
“Mr. Ford threw my virtue and me into the back seat of his studio car and commanded the driver to ‘Go! GO!’,” she wrote. “We went, followed for the briefest but boldest of times by the film set crew- the finest of men.”
And it was in the back of his studio car that Ford began to make out with Fisher. She describes the kissing as “gently digging for jewels using your tongue as a makeshift shovel, jewels buried in the mouth of your beloved.”
Carrie Fisher thought Mark Hamill would have made a better lover than Harrison Ford
Right after that unexpected incident in the back of Ford’s car, Fisher became head over heels for him.
“Harrison was on his lickety-split way to being pretty much everything to me,” she wrote. “He would all too soon become the center of my off-center, kilter-free world.”
Yet regardless of how much she adored him, Ford wasn’t in it for “love.”
“I’m sure that on our relative lists of priorities as we went about filming, I might have ranked as high as number fifteen on his agenda, while Harrison was my number one,” she said.
His neglect ended up becoming painful for Fisher, leaving her with a sense of “hopelessness.”
“I’m sorry it’s not Mark,” she wrote of her behind the scenes affair. “It could’ve been. It should’ve been. It might’ve meant something… Maybe not much, but certainly more.”
Mark Hamill says he and Carrie Fisher were attracted to each other
As it turns out, Hamill and Fisher did have a little fling back in the day. Hamill admits that he and Fisher once made out to get their attraction for each another “out of their system.”
“Carrie and I were attracted to one another,” Hamill revealed, “but I knew from previous jobs that it would have been a bad idea.”
“If I’d had a relationship with her, it would have been like a full-time activity,” he said, “because she was too much for me in every regard: she was too creative, she was too smart. She was just the best.”