Meghan Markle Shares Her One Regret With the Royal Family

In a recent interview with Oprah, Meghan, Duchess of Sussex, revealed her one regret when it came to being a part of the royal family. Keep reading to find out what it was.

Prince Harry, Duke of Sussex and Meghan, Duchess of Sussex arrive to attend the Mountbatten Music Festival at Royal Albert Hall in London, England Simon Dawson
Prince Harry, Duke of Sussex and Meghan, Duchess of Sussex arrive to attend the Mountbatten Music Festival at Royal Albert Hall in London, England | Simon Dawson – WPA Pool/Getty Images

Meghan Markle says she and Prince Harry weren’t ‘protected’ in the royal family

According to Meghan’s interview with Oprah, she didn’t feel like she was protected within the institution in the same way that other royal family members were.

“They were willing to lie to protect other members of the family, but they weren’t willing, to tell the truth, to protect me and my husband,” she said.

Prince Harry and Meghan Markle attend the Women's Empowerment reception in 2018
Prince Harry and Meghan Markle attend the Women’s Empowerment reception in 2018 | Chris Jackson – WPA Pool/Getty Images

And unlike other members of the royal family, Meghan had to face racism and misogyny from the UK Press. The endless harassment was enough to make her suicidal.

“I just didn’t see a solution,” she tells Oprah. “I just didn’t want to be alive anymore. And that was just a very clear and real and frightening constant thought…”

Meghan, Duchess of Sussex
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Because of the mental state she was in, Meghan went to the institution to ask for help. Unfortunately, they turned her down because it would be bad for their “image.”

“I went to the institution, and I said that I needed to go somewhere to get help,” Meghan tells Oprah. “I said I’ve never felt this way before, and I need to go somewhere. And I was told that I couldn’t and that it wouldn’t be good for the institution.”

Meghan Markle reveals her one regret with royal life

Prince Harry, Duke of Sussex and Meghan, Duchess of Sussex arrive at the University of Chichester's Engineering and Digital Technology Park during an official visit to West Sussex on October 3, 2018 in Chichester, United Kingdom
Prince Harry, Duke of Sussex and Meghan, Duchess of Sussex arrive at the University of Chichester’s Engineering and Digital Technology Park during an official visit to West Sussex on October 3, 2018 in Chichester, United Kingdom | Dan Kitwood/Getty Images

While sitting down with the talk show host, the Duchess of Sussex was asked if she had any regrets about being a part of the royal family.

According to Meghan, she only had one.

“My regret is believing them when they said I would be protected,” she said. “And I regret believing that. Because I think had I really seen that that wasn’t happening, I would have been able to do more. But I think I wasn’t supposed to see it. I wasn’t supposed to know. And now because we’re actually on the other side, we’ve actually not just survived, but are thriving.”

Meghan Markle confronted Prince Harry about her suicidal thoughts

Meghan Markle and Prince Harry in Nottingham, England
Meghan Markle and Prince Harry in Nottingham, England | Max Mumby/Indigo/Getty Images

According to Meghan, she was nervous about telling Harry how hopeless she was feeling. Yet despite her hesitation, she knew it had to be done. If she didn’t tell her husband about the mental state she was in, she claims she would have taken her own life.

She said, “I knew if I didn’t say it, I would just do it. I just didn’t want to be alive anymore.”

“It takes so much courage to admit that you need help,” she continues. “It takes so much courage to voice that. As I said, I was ashamed. I’m supposed to be stronger than that. I don’t want to put more on my husband’s shoulders. He’s already carrying the weight of the world.”

Prince Harry, Duke of Sussex and Meghan, Duchess of Sussex
Prince Harry, Duke of Sussex and Meghan, Duchess of Sussex | Phil Noble – Pool/Getty Images

But when she told her husband that she didn’t want to live anymore, Prince Harry knew a change had to be made.

According to the Duke of Sussex, he didn’t want history to repeat itself. (By saying this, he is referring to the tragic life of his mother, Princess Diana.)

Now, they are living in the Santa Barbara area, and claim they are happier than ever.