John Mulaney Felt Like His ‘Skin’s Been Peeled off’ Post-Rehab – Continued to Go Through ‘Some Chemical Withdrawal’
He continued to experience withdrawal symptoms after rehab, likening the feeling to having his skin peeled off.
John Mulaney knew he could not return to stand up immediately after rehab
Mulaney checked himself into rehab in December 2020, seeking treatment for drug and alcohol addiction. He finished the program in February 2021. While he now enjoys being on tour, Mulaney initially knew he needed some time.
“I knew this will make me feel better getting up on stage at night,” he said on the Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend podcast. “And then I also had a very real like – this is gross – I feel like my skin’s been like peeled off. I was still kind of going through some chemical withdrawal, which lasts longer than you think.”
“So I just wasn’t comfortable,” he continued. “And was a little nervous talking to friends. And seeing people for the first time just for dinner or something was strange. So I didn’t feel, you know, stage-ready and I was shakey for a little bit. Then I started to go, well, I’m getting antsy in this different way now and I think it’s because I wanna go out and be a comedian.”
His first few sets were vulnerable and dark
Once he returned to the stage, Mulaney drew from recent experiences. “I started getting on stage in May of 2021 and just doing an hour,” he recalled. “I had a bunch of areas and stories that I wanted to try. So I think I had the time and thought, I can cover 60 minutes of talk, but it was really from [laughs] scratch. That’s the name of the tour.”
“The shows in New York, those May shows were called From Scratch because I wanted to convey to the audience that this is all going to be new,” he said. “It could be rough and not polished or that tight at all. And the first shows weren’t tight at all. And thank God someone reviewed the first one. They said it was open and vulnerable and dark and I thought, well, I literally was just institutionalized.”
Mulaney left rehab in February and was glad he took some time before he returned to the stage. “I think maybe I had some Zoom college shows that I sort of smartly didn’t do,” he said referring to how most of the country was still reeling from the pandemic.
“And then by the time those dates at the City Winery, this really nice venue on the side of the highway there in New York. Once those rolled around, it was just kind of the first time it made sense other than to go to the Comedy Cellar where they had like plastic, literally. It was kind of the first time it made sense to get onstage.”
John Mulaney said his mother is worried about his busy tour schedule
While many venues weren’t open, Mulaney admitted he would have still waited a few months to return to the stage.
“I sort of now am at this place where my mom, who I love so much, she will look at my tour schedule and be like, I’m concerned,” Mulaney admitted. “You’re at so much right now. Is this stressful? And I’m like, this is one of the greatest times of my life and this is the best thing for me. It’s so fun. It’s so I don’t know if right now it’s cathartic so much as it’s just a joy to be out. So fun that people come out so nice. Like after everyone had a very challenging couple of years. Like, everyone’s out together. It’s the best. It feels great.”